God loves us with an everlasting love
Do you know how much He loves you?
Do you know how much He loves you?
I’ll say it again; do you know how much He loves you?!
Many people say “God loves me” but how do they come to that conclusion? Is it something they read? Something they were taught? Something their parents taught them? For me, I once just went on the basis, and a good one at that - of what I had read, heard, and what I was taught by my parents... but deep down—still, I wanted something. I wanted to know that I was forgiven; to know that if I barred all, God would be the first to accept me - because in my eyes, no one else had; not family, not my friends, and not the many people who have come and gone through the years. No one, in my eyes, accepted me. So even though I didn’t think about it… in the dark corners of my mind, was hidden, every evil deed, every even thought, every lie that both man and demon brought to me, all my shame, all the bitterness... it was all hidden in this secret place.
How did I ever come to know that God loves me by experience? Well, I was born again but still I didn’t know God’s love. I knew I would go to Heaven, and I knew the Christian songs, I knew the scripture, but something was terribly empty inside of me. So I searched for something that would fulfill this need to be embraced, accepted, and most of all – loved… a kind of love that would embrace me, even if it knew who I was, or what I had done. So, in my search for love and acceptance, I found many loves, many things that I engrossed myself in, to find "happiness", of some false since of acceptance. I even sunk so low as to sin, even enter a lifestyle of sin - that once I had fell in, I knew would not bring me pleasure anymore, but it was too late, I had fallen in, and couldn’t, for the life of me, get myself out on my own. And once I had sinned, I thought that the one, the only one who at anytime had accepted and embraced me - God - would no longer accept me. These lies forced me further into searching for acceptance. When I couldn’t find it, I looked somewhere else; all the while, I was still trapped in my lifestyles of sin - that though brought me no fulfillment anymore, that even though I didn’t take pleasure in them anymore, I was still bound to. How would I ever get free?
I needed love that was for sure, (we don’t want love, and we need it.) But we search for the wrong kinds of love, in the wrong places. Maybe this sounds familiar to what you’re going through let me assure you, there is hope, life is not over, and God still loves you! And since I needed love, I had to not find love; I had found the one called love before… Jesus Christ. But what I needed was to know love… to feel love - and loved. So, one day, in my desperation, I cried out to God... but that peace I had once felt every time I cried out to God - wasn’t their, God wasn’t far off… I had gone on my own journey, and He waited patiently, while He drew me back to Him. This was the end of my rope, in my mind, I was sure that God no longer accepted me, but this was a lie, from the father of lies!
In trying not to sin, I decided to listen to Christian music, (trying to do it by works, as if not sinning would make God love, or accept me more… HA!) But when I did, the words to a song touched my heart, and for the first time in a long time, I felt that presence sweep over my body, and then I felt something touch my heart… I was told to listen to a song on a CD I had owned for years… when I did, it didn’t change my life, but as I listened... God truly did!!! God began to tell me how much I was worth in His sight, I’m not talking about through the words of the song, and God literally talks!!! He told me that my life was worth so much that Jesus Christ, all of God, in man, would die, let alone become a man like a man becoming a worm, and that He would have done it, just for me. He told me how He sees me - a pure, holy, spotless, Bride! and that all my sins of the past, could no longer effect me, because His blood has covered me, and God no longer sees them, and since He no longer sees them, and since I belong to Him, no one had the right to judge me! He told me, that the blood of Jesus has truly left me redeemed, truly spotless—blameless before God!
Since love is an action, and not an emotion, the life of Jesus Christ - love, was simply love in action! Hallelujah! So in my sin, Christ Jesus died for me, and He has promised a seat with Him, to all who overcome! Praise God Almighty in Heaven! Amen!
